Resolutions

It's the new year. 

That means new beginnings.

New starts.

New Friends.

New talents.

New everything.

It seems that for the last 4-5 years every new year that comes around, my new year resolution has something to do with weight loss. 

I always say I'm going to lose weight. 

Well, this year I'm not saying that at all. 

This year I have a list of resolutions that I want to have come to life before the year 2013.

Here is my list. 

• I want to stop being so stubborn. Seriously, I am probably the most stubborn person on the face of the planet. And it can be about anything. That needs to stop for multiple reasons. It's ok to be stubborn about some things, but I take it to a new level where it's hurtful to others. 
• I want to humble myself. This goes along with the being stubborn thing. But really. I have so much pride and I need to chill. If I get into an argument or I feel I am right about something I will not change my way or try and fix the argument. It's wrong. In my mind I'm saying Courtney stop being an Idiot, and then I say something completely idiotic. So if I humble myself this should stop.
• I want to find more me time. I have anxiety and I get stressed when I don't have time for myself. If I work, do photography, take care of the house, take care of Jake, and do my calling at church I literally have no time for myself because before I have not managed my time the way I should. So, I'm going to do just that. Manage my time so I have time for myself, my husband, and my work. If I don't I won't be as happy as I should be. 
• Develop my Talents. I have so many things that I realized I can do in the year 2011, but never took the time to do it. This year is the year that I'm going to let my talents shine. 
• Be sincere and nice. I have had my moments in the year 2011 where I wasn't as sincere and I wish I would have been, and I definitely wasn't as nice as I should have been on some occasions. I hurt some of my old friends, and even before 2011 I have hurt some people that meant a lot to me and that has never been my character and I don't want it to begin being my character. So I'm going back to the sweet 18 year old self where I only said nice things and thought nice things and pointed out to people being mean that they were being mean and need to apologize. 
• Learn more about everything. Jake says things to me and I just look at him and say huh? And it's because he reads and knows so much that I have no idea about. He teaches me so much and I don't think he realizes it. This year I want to read more history books and books I can learn from so I can teach someone something someday. 
• Become stronger in spirit and mind. I have to do this. My husband is being deployed and I am going to be left here to wait for him. I need to be strong for him, for me, and for our marriage. 

That is pretty much the list. I have goals, but I feel those are not the same as resolutions. And the goals I have are short term, so I wont bother mentioning them on here. :) 

I have a lot to live up to this year, but I feel that if I do this I will find out a lot more about myself and how I want to be as a wife and someday mother. 

I used to end my blogs with a quote. I think I am going to start doing that again just as a reminder to myself that words are the most precious things and they can change everything in just one moment. 

"The past is behind, learn from it. The future is ahead, prepare for it. The present is here, Live it" - President Thomas S. Monson